Stand Still
I won't lie when I say I was pretty confused about God when our son died. We'd tried everything, promised everything, threatened even more. I even told God I wouldn't believe in Him if He let my son die. I had to stop right there in the hospital corridor and chuckle when His immediate answer came to my mind, "Oh great, lose your son and your God at the same time”. Fortunately, I lost neither, but now my son was in Heaven and my God felt far away. I had nothing to say. We left the States on our way back to Japan, planning to bury his ashes at the church where he had grown up. At the insistence of our mission, we had a stopover in Australia for some time of rest and reflection. We were reminded that we still had an 11-year-old son, Nathan, who had been largely ignored for the last eight months. “Don’t make him a victim, too,” we were told. I had a book (back before the internet) and we found a 'Farm Stay’ near the airport in Brisbane. We'd go ther...